He still has a hold on me...
Journal Entry: Sat Feb 2, 2008, 12:21 AM
- Mood:
Miserable - Listening to: Let it Bleed, The Used.
- Reading: Dracula, Bram Stoker
- Drinking: Pepsi.
I don't really know how to start this, other than to say that I feel so angry with myself.
I thought I saw my one and only ex today. The resemblance was uncanny - down the the voice, the hair, the glasses. And i felt physically ill.
I haven't seen him in almost a year. I have no wish to see him. But today, I thought it really was him. i was shaking and breathing erratically. I could feel people around me staring - I must have been white as a sheet.
And i felt so angry that even the memory of that bastard can still reduce me to such depths. I felt so angry with myself for not just turning away and ignoring him.
And I still am angry... that it has made me so miserable. that i can't forget it.
I want to kill him.... I think that's the only way I would ever truely be rid of him. Though that would mean looking at him again. And I don't think I could do it.
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